" I should have realized that it wasn't ready for a test. I should have stopped and thought about it and realized I was being incredibly reckless and the result of that is Nilani was left alone. " Ezri paused to look at her friend. " I can remember what it felt like, Julian. The explosions, the way my lungs seared. You never do get used to it. Dying."

She did feel better, talking with it to her friend. "You're probably the best person of all to talk about this." Besides Jadzia. "We could make you an honorary counselor."