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Ezri sipped a mug of hot chocolate, spiced enough to satisfy Jadzia and Curzon without completely killing her own taste buds. Balance. She was working on it--and considering she had stopped counseling until she felt she was more in balance, that was probably a good thing. How could she help people when she couldn't help herself? She was more screwed up than most of them. Those weren't exactly wonderful qualifications in a counselor.

In order to figure out who she was, Ezri needed to re-evaulate her life, and make sure the choices she had made are still choices she would make now, as Ezri Dax. Easier said than done.

"What am I doing? Talking to myself obviously, great sign of sanity."

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"Oh, I've been doing this for months. Actually, finding an even keel is kind of the problem. I'm Ezri. Try the hot chocolate. Just don't try and mix it with blood wine. Doesn't cover the taste."

Dax kicked out a chair, offering Thea a seat. "I'm Ezri."

"I'm Thea and hot cocoa won't cover up the taste of protein powder either." Thea offered with a smile as she joined Ezri. "Not sure if I'll be useful but can at least offer an ear?"

Ezri gave her new found friend a nod. "I'd like that," she said gently. " You ever feel like you woke up one day and became a completely different person? And you're not sure where to start to put things back together? Or even if they'll come back together in the same shape as before?"

"Sounds about right. I got pulled here after being stabbed, long story, but even now I'm still picking up the pieces." Thea offered. "Its like for every step forward its always a few shoves back if I have the idea right." she tried to explain.

"Yup. That's it exactly. You solve one thing and 5 more problems pop up. Like Cardassian voles. Life never used to be this difficult, this tough. All I can do to try and figure it out is stand on my head and drink heavily spiced hot chocolate."

"While I just try and pick up the pieces for the 5th or 6th time. So much easier to shove my feelings but learned the hard way its never a good option." Thea mused. She decided to not spill portions she could only trust a small handful with, some things would stay close to the soul.

"Trust me, I've been around a lot longer than seem. I'm older than I look, and hiding your feelings is never a good plan. It tends to back fire. Big time. Then again, I was a pretty lousy parent no matter how many times I tried it, so maybe you shouldn't listen to my advice at all."

Ezri changed her mind again. "Actually, no. You should listen to me. None of my advice can be worse than my mothers."

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"Its something I've learned the hard way so its more true than before." Thea was honest with Ezri. "This time it grandly backfired into losing 15 pounds and not sleeping for better part of a month, really long story." more shocked she was even talking about nightmare month to anyone besides Oliver and Felicity. "But I've got a tiny handful I can trust with everything inside my head."

"I think I've got you beat. I have actual people inside of me. Long story too. It's kind of like having multiple personality disorder, except this is apparently normal. But," Ezri sipped her hot chocolate, " I don't reccomend loosing that much weight. You should have Dr. Bashir take a look at you. He's a good friend, and a good person.And if you want to talk, I'm just about the most messed up Counselor you could probably find."

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