Intro-ish Post (With Options)

[not_the_question]

This Doctor had been getting settled in on board the Enterprise - well as much as he can. He still baulks at the jabs he had to be given, but since they didn't contain anything that was harmful to him, he allowed for them.

Now, he has an agenda. He knows the TARDIS is somewhere on board and now that he has a map and listings, he's going to go there to find it.


The Doctor is making his way down to the cargo hold, but going about it the long way around. May as well investigate the ship on his way. If he can get to the TARDIS, he won't be staying long anyway, so he might as well explore something new as he goes along.

It's all terribly human. Basic, really. And they think it's the best thing. About the only thing he's really interested in is this Q character. He doesn't mind humans most of the time. He just doesn't like being 'stuck' with them. And there's so much humanity here - with nothing to escape it.

B: TARDIS Cargo hold Plot: Open To All
After his adventure with Trever and his cat, the Doctor finally arrives at the cargo hold that is marked as containing the TARDIS. He sonics his way in (whether or not that was necessary) and looks around. Some of the items look familiar and others seem alien - even to him - which is saying something. It isn't long before he sees the TARDIS, standing there in all her glory. He confidently strides towards her. When he gets there, he gives a loving stroke to her. "Hello, Old Girl. Now, let's see about getting out of here."


The Doctor needed to vent his anger and frustration at not being able to get back to his own universe. So he made his way to the training room. He had told Clara he had cheated against Robin Hood with his archery skills. But that doesn't mean he's positively rubbish at it. He just wasn't sure of his aim at a ship with rotating bits. If he were to be perfectly honest, which he rarely is, he just needs a bit of practice. He was disappointed that he couldn't get into the Armoury, so he would have to make-do with one of the holodecks. Pity. It's never quite as good as the real thing. Now, if only someone else with archery skills were around. Nothing like a little bit of friendly competition when it comes to brushing up on skills.



{{OOC: I'm happy to backtag however long people are interested in playing with these plots.}}

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[not_the_question]

Twelve just arches an eyebrow at Eleven's protest. "Trust me. All the ones here are young compared to mine."

But Eleven's words to his TARDIS does earn a small smile from Twelve. Maybe KITT was right and they are in love...

"I don't know that it would work anyway. So, I'm not sure it matters."

And the hint of defeat returns. This feeling is too similar to how he felt when the 'Here' told him there was nothing he could do to save the planet from the trees.

[madman_inabox]

He still didn't really believe his older self. How much further ahead in time could he really be? All the other times he'd met himself they hadn't been that far apart. But that wasn't all that important.

Regardless, he didn't particularly like that defeated sound in his older self's voice. Since when did he lose his ability to hope that he could fix everything that could be wrong?

"We're all here for a reason. That's how it usually works isn't it? We just haven't figured out what that reason is yet."

[not_the_question]

"I really believed all that when I was you, didn't I? I'd love to say it was arrogance. But it was more naivety."

He shakes his head to ward off any reply from his younger self.

"That's exactly how it works... until it doesn't. And you will never be wrong as often as you are when you are me."

He's admitting it. He doesn't do it often, but who better to admit things to than yourself?

[madman_inabox]

That comment made him wonder what had changed between now and then. Whatever it was, Eleven didn't like it.

"Is it really that bad when I'm you?"

[not_the_question]

"Depends on which 'it' you are referring."

Because some of it is worse. Much worse. He was wrong about the Dalek, but worse, he was wrong about Clara. And that still hurts.

[madman_inabox]

"Whatever 'it' made you like this."

He knew, on some level that he'd never be able to really find out anything, Spoilers, timelines, and all of that, but in 11's estimation, he already knows he isn't the last. That was a pretty big spoiler.

[not_the_question]

"I already told you: you'll never be wrong more often than when you're me. But if you require an example. A Dalek looked into our soul and saw hatred."

Not really a spoiler, since he's not giving the hows and whys surrounding it. But that was a pretty formative moment so early in this body.

[madman_inabox]

Allowing a Dalek to see his soul, or whatever Daleks considered to be souls, was more unnerving to him than the fact that there was hatred there. He couldn't bring himself to show the Daleks any sort of kindness, not after the Time War and everything else. Don't get him started on the Weeping Angels, they took his family from him. He also wasn't all that happy with the Church, considering what they'd done to the Ponds and River.

"That surprised you? They told us they saw beauty in us."

Which they had, before that mess with the asylum.

[not_the_question]

"Don't be so simple. It's all about context. Underneath the beauty. Underneath all that is divine and good in the Universe. It looked beneath all of that and discovered hatred. And once it found that nothing else mattered."

As if hatred is what drove the Doctor, gave him his meaning.

[madman_inabox]

Even though he carried so much guilt and made so many selfish choices over the centuries, hatred didn't seem like all that drove him. Did he think he was worthy of being called a hero? Not in the slightest, but there was more to life than hatred, wasn't there?

"How can nothing else matter? It did when you were me."

[not_the_question]

"You asked if 'it's really that bad' when you're me. I'm trying to show you that it is."

At least without going into things that would actually be spoilers. He could tell his younger self about the betrayal that Clara committed. Because that was pretty telling as well.

"Still. At the end of the day it doesn't really matter. Not being a good man, doesn't mean that I'm a bad man."

Which he learned from P.E. Well, from P.E.'s love for Clara anyway.

[madman_inabox]

"I guess not."

That much was true. He really did just do the best he could, even in this body. A lot of the time his best was enough, and other times, it wasn't. There wasn't much he could do about any of that.

[not_the_question]

"Once I accepted that, things became much simpler."

He offers a smirk. "We're still an idiot, though."

Because that is oddly one of the constants as he's gotten older. He always seems to be an idiot at some level. And even the smartest person in the room can be an idiot about some things.

[madman_inabox]

That was good at least. Maybe whatever gave him an extra face, also helped to change his outlook on the universe a little bit. That was good, wasn't it? Living with all the guilt he carried with him for the last few lives would probably make the next one almost too much to bear.

"Well, we can't change everything about ourselves when we change faces."

[not_the_question]

Oh, there's plenty of guilt still there - buried under a furious face, sarcasm, and bad puns.

"Well, no. How would anyone know us if we changed everything? How would we ever convince our companions that we're still the same man if everything changed?"

Flashback to Clara not accepting him, until he called.

"You'd think by now we'd have figured out a way to make it easier on them..."

[madman_inabox]

His older self had a point. So far, the one that had the easiest time accepting him when he changed was Rose. But he'd always assumed that she was just so happy that he was still alive that the strangeness of the whole situation was put to the side.

Eleven wanted to ask how it happened, the specific. Was Clara there? What happened at Trenzalore? He knew he shouldn't but he wanted to.

"It was...difficult this time?"

[not_the_question]

Twelve would be disappointed in Eleven's lack of memory. Of course that was what he did back then. But, how could Eleven forget the way Sarah Jane had accepted his transformation, or Tegan, Nyssa and Adric? How could he forget that Jackie accepted him faster than Rose? There were many companions that handled it better than his recent lot.

"Well, we didn't hold it off in the way we did when you popped out. It was actually pretty quick. No glowing light. One second I was you, the next I was me."

Which is downright strange now that he thinks about it. As Regenerations go, it was the quickest if you talked about when the actual transformation happened.

"The Regeneration sickness was a doozy, though. Couldn't keep people straight."

He didn't even remember where his face had come from.

"Interesting, though... The TARDISes from earlier are here, but not mine. So, the question is: Is she up to something or has this 'Q' figured us out."

I love being the one who forgets...since I usually forget :)

[madman_inabox]

That caused Eleven to grimace. The worst he did in this body was walk into a tree. He still managed to save the world in twenty minutes AND only destroy one shed.

"I think Q may have figured her out. I doubt he knows what to expect from us since he keeps bringing more and more of us here."

I could never play Eleven because I don't forget ;) It would cause a brain conflict LOL

[not_the_question]

He walks over to one of them... Eleven's? Ten's? Eight's? Doesn't matter, they're all her.

"Well, that would be my luck."

If only he knew who would arrive a month from now.

"He probably has figured out we're rubbish without her. Not having her here from my time just adds insult to injury. And that leaves just two questions: how do we find this 'Q' and who's going to stop me when we do?"

Because 'angry' doesn't even begin to describe what he is. Bring him here, fine. Even the companions, as long as they don't get hurt. But bring his TARDIS, feed her gross tasting universe energy (well KITT had said that, who is he to question kit), and cut her off from him? Unacceptable.

I'm still catching up on Classic Who stuff, it's a lot of tv. And the audios sucked me in

[madman_inabox]

"As far as I can tell, my TARDIS is generally fine. A little cranky, but fine."

He hadn't asked anyone about the gross tasting universe energy, nor did he really think of that as being a problem. But based on the way the TARDIS was acting, Eleven just thought she was mad at him...again...for some reason. It can't be because he doesn't visit. He does that every day.

"I've done some asking around, isn't harmful really. If he were I doubt he would let her in here at all."

OMG the Audios are brilliant! XD I have so many of them to get through :|

[not_the_question]

"But it's not our universe... Remember the first time we went to Pete's World? Nearly killed her. We thought it did kill her. But she was oh so clever."

And his expression darkens when Eleven gives Q the benefit of the doubt.

"Really? Was I always so blind to things when I was you? I mean, you do understand that he's the 'bad guy', right?"

They are...I've been kind of jumping around from series to series.

[madman_inabox]

"She always is."

There was a reason he was so proud that the TARDIS was his and that was one of them.

"And we've been the 'bad guy' too. Haven't we?"

So for the moment, even though Q was snatching people from their lives he was going to give him the benefit of the doubt. At least until Q does something that makes that change.

Me too, but I've decided to work on Main Range right now. 13 days worth.

[not_the_question]

"Not intentionally. And never to cut her off from us like this. And she taught us to always respect her... Our 'Friend Ship'."

He shudders a bit at the memory of Anti-time and Zagreus. He hides his face in his hand. And yes, he got a bit angry when he didn't find Gallifrey. They talked about it. Well, he talked. He assumed she listened. And then he thought about Clara betraying both of them by thinking she was throwing his keys into the volcano... Sure he was acting, but the question had been raised. And there was only one answer.

"I don't know what to do without her."

I'm doing the Gallifrey Ones. But most of them are on CD. So I keep having to wait

[madman_inabox]

To Eleven, Gallifrey was still destroyed. That hadn't happened for him yet, at least while wearing this face.

"We're not without her," he said, trying to be as comforting as he could. Being without the TARDIS was a scary prospect for him too. She was the only one who was around through all the centuries, the only one that kept him company. "I'm sure she wouldn't mind another visitor."

Gallifrey Series is Splended. Also sent a PM

[not_the_question]

Twelve considers rolling his eyes or reminding his younger self that he's not 'Another visitor', but sometimes it's really not worth it.

"And yet we are. No access to her, so we're without her."